Correctly, I desired a lot in my life. For 45 years, I tried my hardest to be good, honest, and rightly not evil. My desire was for peace. To get peace I felt I had to have money. To get money I worked hard. I worked myself into a career with NASA, Orion's space capsule, Atlas Rockets, WARSIM computer simulators, secret programs, which have no meaning in this reality.

I worked so hard that my body gave out. I was made into a pirate. Misplacing my eyesight in both eyes for a time, losing my left foot, right ankle. What I miss the most is a famous quote, I miss my mind. If that was not enough regaining partial vision one day I was thrown into what I know now a closed time curved loop. You might not believe me. Heck, I doubt I would believe myself if I do not experience each day. From there I have lost everything and everyone. You say you wake up with exact backward parallel realities showing the same people. Yes, we know you thought the rapture happened.

I at first thought I was involved with the rapture. Some 2.5 billion people disappeared May 18 2016. I went from a world with 8.5 billion down to Deagel.com stating in 2015, there were only 5.8 billion and the world population clock showing roughly 6 billion that was in June of 2016. Since, then I have watched the earths plural change dramatically adding and subtracting souls daily. I was worried to be honest. Was I left behind?

Then I started to look and see what was happening. Someone, somewhere played with time travel. Instead of abortion being legalized in 1967 my timeline, it had to be legalized 1973 on several timelines and, which point the US sold that idea to China, which murders roughly 500 million people. I thought the US did this to Pakistian, but I was wrong.

You see China, India, England, US, and Japan all have time travel equipment. I did my research along the way. You could if can find it anymore to read about India going back in time in The Anderson Time Institute. I was wild if I read the article correctly evidently from my world to several of these worlds India went backward in time and made Pakistan's men gay in ideology meaning one of their speakers actually accepting the practice and suggests in this reality it is better sex with a boy than a woman. How did India do this by making one of their prime speakers homosexuals? The ideologic change is so profound that the acceptance murders 500 million Pakistan from my timeline.

After rereading much of the bible, I realized some other items had changed dramatically too. Numbers, and adjectives describing the amount of people getting into heaven. I guess what is happening is I am watching the end of humanity. Just that the event happened if my high school biology teacher was right the world was 6.5 billion years old, now I am watching it happen in the past some 2 billion years meaning nothing can be changed the past is the past, and I am living in a past which is showing the end of humanity. You all are zombies and the living dead. I warn people your souls are lost without Christ. No one seems to care. Which is wild and mildly discouraging at times?

What gets me is the mobile mountain, I see a daily move. People think I am insane which is possible. In yet, I remember from day to day where stuff was yesterday or according to the Internet how old earth is every 50 million-year cycle around the now functioning closed time curved loop black hole that CERN is running on souls that could make the end of humanity happen.

For 12 years, I lived with the same woman. She was my love of my life. May 18, 2016 minus two billions from this reality I fell into a closed time curved loop. I have seen since after that different versions of my wife soul for several million, then billion years... You say I am nuts. I would agree with you, but I prove most people that I know what I am talking about. That she has been dead for along time, is the complexity of traveling backwards in time to parallel realities. What makes one soul so distinctive from another is just a little difference in their story. That I have learned a lot about who, she is well very wild. That I am no longer sure of my reality is truth... correctly if Mandela effect is factual for you people have been dead for a very long time. In yet it seems like a blink of an eye to me or two years.

if I read the past formula correctly, Godel formulates that spinning counter clockwise through a black hole will put a special dust into a suspended state and fall downwards or back in time. The soul from another text seeks out something similar to itself. Time is suspended. However, this is something a speculation the time is in a blink of the person's eyes in his normal time. Meaning this dream state is my dying microtubule in my mind has already happened. Thus the sun here really was dead 2 billion years, which even a black hole cannot reverse. The significance is in the bible. We will be eating, and partying like the days of Noah. It contradicts we will see the signs in the sky. The sign is a planet x. Psalms 2; humanity Scientology is fighting God too. The whole cycle black hole and dead sun is wild.

What gets me even more is finding other people with similar memories in yet, when I ask them a fact number or place of location or a historical fact on like the battle of Hastings 1006 not 1066, they say some other date making me wonder what time line did they come from, and if we are all derivatives which story was really the most interesting one? You know. There are books about adventures like the Hobbit by J R Tolkien. No to Rs pleases. Then there are books like mine, which are pointless. Meaning sure I am time traveling, certain I realize that people are not whom I knew yesterday, yep I understand there are now several endings for me that I had never guessed in a million years, let alone 2 billion years. In yet history has changed enough that I wonder. I mean I wandered a lot of streets for 45 years prior to this. I was me. I was a bear in a boy's body that did not know what to do then. Now, well I have not a clue. To see the end of the worlds is possible. To see my soul get back to the point of where and when I had this experience is a bit of an awkward statement. Yes, I realize I might be dead prior to May 18 2016. In fact, I realize that possibility more and more days when I look at old photos, and remember how looney some people were in 2012 and longer into 1980s. I realize that someone or something is wrong with time. Time is the oddity. When you realize a third of the stars fall, and star harmonize to light, and light equates to Christ you wonder at times. Am I saved or am I on my way to hell? I wonder if hell is like Lame Deer, Montana? If so I would like to avoid that place please. Thoughts, I doubt people read me anymore.

Anyway, Beware you do not desire anything, or you too could experience the Mandela effect.

The definition of magic is technology just not understood at present in some realities. In other realities, you realize that any magic in spells used is demonic. Where as in other realities there are fae or fairies to the moguls who can at their desire help out at times. The reality of magic for those traveling the Mandela effect is something a bit of an oddity if time is correct and a closed time curved loop being run out of a CERN or one of the other now 30,000 spinning electron spinners is really creating a black hole punching a hole, in reality, for a soul to travel backwards in time per math done by John Von Neumann in 1930s.

The awkwardness of a reader, and writer adventure into a past where Amelia Earhart plane was photographed by Google's maps of some island. Where people now know Shakespeare´s grave, that he had children, and wife, whose father was a glove maker was never known to me, and this is just wild. The memory of English class where the discussion was Shakespeare really one man, or was he a combination of an ambassador to Italy, and two other well known poets and writers took up time in class. I wonder to be honest without those discussions what the soul thought about here? Did he care? Did he try hard? That is something I am no longer assured. Who is or was I here prior to my soul ending up here for a day?

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