What It's Like To Be A Shadowbanned Artist Trying To Make It In The Post-Censorship Internet
I don't think people out there who aren't creators passionate about their own work really know what it's like and how it feels when obstacles are constantly thrust in your way to make you fail. And these aren't natural obstacles, these are the imposed, unnescesary obstacles of censorship and shadowbanning. If I had been going full 100 5 to 10 years ago with redpill/conscious music, videos and podcasts I have no doubt I would be on the same level as a Sam Hyde or Jay Dyer right now. NO DOUBT. But my life has been a series of bad luck. I started doing the redpill stuff in 2017 and before I could reach a loyal group of dedicated 1000 to 10000 fans on YouTube, before I could even get to a 100, a hater reported my content for 'hate speech' and I have been shadow banned there ever since. Since I only had less than 100 subs, it's like pouring salt in the wounds. And to further pour salt in the wounds: They demonetized one of my videos and removed another one; Bandcamp terminated my old Bandcamp and put Russ and I's in an invisible state where no one can find it.
They want nothing more than to shove my face in shit until I tell them 'Yes, sir, it tastes good, may I have another?" But that's never gonna happen. I will never bow down to their fake regime of degenerate mumble rapper hacks and woke phonies. They are trying to make it seem like I am no good, that nobody wants my stuff and that's why no one looks at it. When the only way it's like that is BECAUSE YOU HAVE CENSORED AND SHADOW BANNED ME FROM THE INTERNET! How can I expect to grow when I am made invisible from the world?! When the reality is I have more talent and courage and intuition in my little FUCKING pinkie finger than they do in their entire BULLSHIT careers!!! HACKS, FAKES, ALL OF THEM!!! Only when they stand before the gates of Hell at end of the world will they realize they fucked up big time. It's utterly disheartening to put all this time and effort into work you KNOW is GREAT, innovative, etc. and for it to be almost completely ignored and hidden away so almost no one can find it except for some sporadic folks on Minds or BitChute.
And that's the other thing: I have met a lot of great folks on here, but 3/4ths of the truthers I have met on here don't care about original music or art, they only care about memes. I can count the true fans here on my hands, and even then I feel like the attention they give my stuff is often fickle. I'm sorry, I don't want to say like I'm ungreatful, but that's how I feel. Where are all the people who are into stuff like Sam Hyde, Charls Caroll, Owen Benjamin, Morrissey, original Alt Right/new Right art/comedy/music? They seem to be all but absent from here or BitChute. About the only place they are appears to lurking around on YouTube for some retarded reason, the one platform where I am PREVENTED from reaching them because I am FUCKING SHADOWBANNED!!! It's like I have to try and reach out to Sam or Charls. It's my last resort. My 'career' is circling the toilet. And I am too fucking good to let that happen. This is a plight you don't hear about much. Good original Redpill artists who have tried to climb up from the bottom Post Censorship Era YouTube/Twitter etc. Sam, Jay Dyer, and many other's may have gotten their channels and websites deleted but at least they still have their loyal fans from before to follow them around. I don't have that. YouTube has sought to that. BitChute is well meaning but no one grows there. Minds is at best a mixed bag and is really bad for growing unless you're a meme artist.
My personal life is wrought with bullshit too. I am a targeted individual. Local Illuminati feds and cops are trying to ruin my life by telling everyone that I am a dangerous Alt Right radical. But all in all, I persevere because I know the worth of my own work. It's like how bad do you have to fear somebody to want to make life so hard for them in hopes that they'll off themselves or be the proverbial bull triggered by the white flag? But it's not gonna happen. I'm not playing your goddamn game. I know that what I do is important and I eventually WILL SUCCEED. You're not gonna get the best of me YOU PATHETIC, IMPOTENT IMBECILES abusing your power. You're not gonna fucking win. Over and out.
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