Everyone sees it but is still blind to it.

my stress levels have gone up, for no perceivable reason to me, now of course everyone is like 'you have a baby one the way, its understandable' and that's probably it . . . . But before when i've dealt with stress it has been manageable by thinking past it over rationalising and distraction, and the same is working now just not as much and signs have started . . . more headaches and worries and i feel i should note this is very much not depression i've had hard nagging depression, this isnt that, this is more like my prey response has been heightened my skittishness elevated. . . . also my dog got big.

any way this thought process led me to many a conversation about mental health especially this one night with 2 female friends, me and my girlfriend spoke about the issues with dealing with male mental health and before we'd even rounded the point the two of them agreed with themselfs that 'guys don't talk enough though do they like girls' and i had this moment where i remembered boys and girls brains in development either strengthen the bond between speech and emotion or the loosen ( you can guess which way round it is) so getting a boy to talk about his feeling is LITERALLY more difficult and yields almost no results, this shocked them but they completely understood as the have witnessed the differences between the sexes their entire life, and this made me think about how people see the problem but are blind to it and how most mental health awareness programmes seem poorly phased at best, like they were read from a book and one that thinks there are no differences between the sexes at all at that. so people being blind to the issue even though they see it

also earlier this week me and my girlfriend have been doing all the lessons and classes for the upcoming birth generating all the foreseeable questions and conversations with everyone under the sun, what we learned in class was the importance of remaining calm and letting the body work as fear will restrict blood flow stop the muscles working and make the whole ordeal a F**K tonne more painful, when it could be almost painless ( sounds mad but look up hypnobirthing on youtube ) 

anyway this led to people telling us stories as well. . . . and all we learned is that people are IDIOTS . . . .basically turning up to a sporting event on the starting line with no preparation no plans and just winging it and then telling a horror story of a birth to a woman on the cusp of birth herself as if people take a pleasure in freaking out first time parents, its extra not fun knowing that any anxiety can make her birth exponentially more painful. . . . 

but hey nothing a bit of meditation can't sort out hey.

sorry about my grammar and sporadic thoughts