Klub Oom | Depression

What can we say that has not yet been said. Won't change the feeling, right.... or could it?!

Ever want to go back to a time when ice cream could legitimately make you have happy feelings. You then go play with friends and forget about the worries, bad situations, or voices. You go work on a project, or just be on your own. Doing something, nothing really, but for the moment something.

I believe we should every now and again be like children are. Just enjoying the moment as if it were a present. Yes life is difficult, more for some, and yes to most. All in their own twisted little way.

Unfortunately parents can do the best they can think of, but if they themselves can't get over their own short comings, how would their children learn to do better themselves. Perhaps not active parents for what ever reason, but inseminated and given birth to nun the less. Human ape thing.

When we are born we start making sense of the world around us. We start making up stories on what we perceive and experience. One problem though. If you believe something, it will be because you have experienced something to prove it to you, or you cannot think of why not. But not all you experiences are true, and some times you just believe stupid things. And that is okay. It is fun to learn something, so be thankful you still have many things to learn.

The experiences we have are just a representation of what we believe the world to be, and what the world shows us it to be. Most kids with okay parents grow up thinking the world is okay. As long as I follow the rules and play along, I am treated well and I get time to do what I want. More and more as I grow up. Come to an end it must. Be always alone you are. At least eventually.

Every now and again we experience something to prove that this world is not as okay as we thought it to be. Our world is actually very dark, and not all see the darkness in themselves. Or they do and try to avoid their dark side with addiction or aggression. Fact being most people are just like sheep. Sheeple. Sheeple have got no idea how things work in the world, they just react to their environment and choose the path of least resistance. A few people know this and they then cause situations to keep people dependant on them. 

"Without me to support you, you will fail, and go hungry" - Givers

This dependance is a terrible agreement. Not always the intent of the givers, but almost always the perception of the receivers. Receivers are very thankful for the gifts from the givers and in turn reward the giver with flattery and time/effort. Children give obedience and will act out instructions, and this will keep them happy as long as they are rewarded also with being themselves on their own time. If they are not rewarded with their own time they get distorted with their own thoughts, and the contradiction they see in the world. 

Your parents say never lie. Then they lie to the neighbours. Your parents say do what we say, not as we do. Parens say white lies are okay. Parents just want you to be happy. You start white lying when you are sad. You sad now almost always, but have told the lie for too long. You are now living the lie, and telling the truth on your lie will change your life story. Take away the thing you made yourself to be. I could not possibly be anything better than I currently am??!!

Sometime in life we experience this abandonment, aloneness, destruction of the world as we know it. This is also not a once off experience. Specially not for those raised by very involved and loving parents. Parents that kept you away from all the dark of the world in order to save you from pain. You will soon realise that they will not always be there and that you will be left in this dark world without their guidance. 

This is one reason I see religion instilled in so many people. They are so afraid of the depression that they need to hand it over, even if it were a spaghetti monster. I rather see depression as the world showing us its true form. An opportunity to re-evaluate your entire existence and the rules your simulation run on. See what you are mistaken on, what is real of the world, and then where you will place yourself back into this dark world. 

As smart as you think yourself to be, and as much as you believe you know yourself, you don't and you aren't. Growing up through life, especially the cities, we rarely find any true guidance. We are with parent types in the beginning, then teachers, then professors, then managers, then tour guides, then frail care, and dead. We are kept so busy that we hardly have the time to do anything for just us. We just have so many choirs to get to, homework to do, research to do, family fun to have, chatting with the bae, bank cues, bar cues, etc, etc.

For a better all round view on depression, click here, this person has a weird style in making videos, but just listen and watch. A few good seeds will fall somewhere. Oohh oohh, see truth as seeds falling into your mind. Seeds of new ideas. Ideas you are not yet use to. Now be dramatic and see depression as the rainy storms coming over these seeds. Cold. Windy. Dark. Yet somehow pleasing from the core. Going through a new idea is not easy and your body get's drained from it. Especially if you keep yourself busy with things you should rather not be doing. Like eating fast foods and not speaking the truth.