Nobody Caares Day 3

February 15th 2018.

Well I managed to finish my first book. I wouldn't go referring other people to read it, because its not very uplifting or happy.. It sort of puts a gloom over you. But Monday I was all excited cause I was feeling great for a few days in row getting quite regular at the gym.. and no longer sick with the flu.. and I went to leave for work.. and slipped and smashed my head on the cement and I got a big goose egg.. and so I have been in a mood for a couple days with an extremely painful body and headache. But I powered through and finished my book despite the headache. I am looking to read a new one as soon as possible. My husband live streams, so he doesn't like the television on. And I am working pretty hard to keep it off for most of the evenings. And only use it for emergency purposes. I made it back to the gym tonight. Which was really nice. Just a bit felt like I was going to die of boredom. I like working out with Sarah better. So tomorrow I will take the kids to the gym and work out with Sarah for three hours while they play at youth. That's only good for Fridays.

So I have been powering through my life thinking my daughter is pregnant. She told me she got a positive to her test the other day. But then said it could be a false positive. I haven't told my husband. Or anyone. She swore me to secrecy. Which for now is fine, cause I am wishing she wasn't. Also, she gave me her login and password for her email to find out if she had a job coming.. and It was quite stressful seeing what was in there. It was clear she has been doing hard drugs. Crack, and coke for sure. Which explains why she goes through so much money I guess. I have had a few days of processing which is why I am saying this so matter of a factly. Well I suspected she was doing drugs since December, when I kept giving her money and it was never enough. Over and over and over. So I assumed but.. it was confirmed this week.

       Last Sunday I was at my moms place and she said something about her having a fraud alert on her bank. I asked her if she lent her card to Saige. She said she had, but it wasn't from her- she mentioned she ordered something online that was a trial basis and that she expected it to be 9.99 but she got the bill for 109.00 so she called the bank and that was why. I said, well I don't know mom, Saige shouldn't have gotten any checks lately to cash, and she seems to know how to do fraud. I made her look up how much the checks were for. There was one that was 150.00 and the other was 350.00.    Funny.. but she was feeding her cat cereal the next day.    So where did that money go?  Where did she get the check?  And why on earth are you lending her your bank card?   And why is she still ordering scams off the internet its got to be the 100th time.   Honestly for both. Saige has previously taken her credit card.. and charged a bunch of stuff to it.    Why on earth? My mom is a genius.   Like she is brilliant.    So why does she let herself keep getting taken advantage of?  

    My mom has no money, Saige has no money.     I am the only one that works. I told her I would lend her the money to pay her insurance.   Which wasn't going to be a big deal cause I was going to work the next day.    But then I fell down the stairs. Its not a big deal. All the other stuff is a big deal.   I likely wont be able to stop talking about it, so I will likely go into a lot more detail later.   But currently Saige is with a guy named Randy and he is 35 years old, while she is 19 turning 20 in 7 days.     I am not sure what to get her for her birthday. She said to me the other day that I better not give her 20$ in a card cause she will throw it back at me and crumple the card. Lol.    Which was out of the blue. I always try to get her something good. And its always 150.00 worth of money And typically a dinner out. To celebrate her birthday. So that was a bit rude.