Yayo's humble and most gracious Apology

Sometimes, while surfing on Social Media, I forget who I am. I get embroiled in a Character I play, or try to play. Laying on Facade to color over my otherwise extremely bland existence. Looking past the Anime Avatar and mask of sarcasm, cynicism and sometimes badly aimed insults, is nothing more but somebody with a life as boring as a box full of cardboard.

Because of this I 'pretend' to have an exciting and quirky life. A life like in my terribly written Short Stories. These Stories, although published publicly, are mostly written for me and me only. A fake diary for a fake me, having fake adventures. 

Don't get me wrong. I like to be quirky, and putting on this Mask allows me to say things that I otherwise wouldn't be able to say. It is a way of expressing myself without becoming too melancholic. Yayo, much more than a cringy Fan-fiction of an Anime Character, is the me I want to be. I love pretending to be the person I want to be. Well, maybe not as exaggerated like in my Stories, but a little more energy would still be nice.

This has its down-sides though. Sometimes the Mask shatters and shows the ugly visage under it. With the mask I am able to laugh off most things, but without it I am a mean little git. 

But why?

Simple.

Being on Social Media, observing other peoples Life, I have come to make a realization. A realization forced on me by drowning myself in an endless sea of people better than me. With a more fulfilled Life than me.

I guess I always hoped to be the Max Schreck of Social Media users. Acting like somebody else, until you actually believe to be that other person. That is not how it works though. This is frustrating and it leads to inner resentment, jealousy of others and, most unfortunately, hatred.

Max Schreck as Count Orlok in 'Nosferatu': "Max Schreck was simply a perfect fit for the lead role of the monster and the brilliant makeup made him look like a true vampire. Because of his convincing performance, some people thought that Schreck really was a vampire." (Blazeski).

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This is the point my apology comes into the mix. Everything before was just a build up to explain my actions. I don't want to play the victim or the whiny asshole. I rather just be Yayo to be honest. But what I want to be is not that kind of Yayo. I want to be a fun, quirky and witty Yayo, not a mean one.

Thus I would like to apologize. Apologize to @Fiofly.

I am sorry for having called you a 'Useless Housewife who contributes nothing to society.' This is, of course, not true. Housewives are one of the most important parts of society. They are helping to raise and take care of our future. They are not just an aid to their Husbands, oh no, they are their other halves. Sometimes they are even needed to keep the other half in check. 

This is not me shitting on women who put their career before their family, far from it. Everybody should be doing what makes them happy after all, as long as it does not hurt anyone else. 

The anger you received from me was ill-placed and shouldn't have been directed towards you. You were at no fault. I was angry at somebody else you knew. 

I always had problems with venting my anger. I will try to improve that in the future. At least here on Social Media.

Maybe Minds isn't the right place for this, but let me make this public apology anyway, to show that I mean it.

I am very sorry. 

Reference:

Blazeski, Goran. "Max Schreck- Count Orlok from Nosferatu inspired actors such as Bela Lugosi & Klaus Kinski." The Vintage News, 27 October 2016, https://www.thevintagenews.com/2016/10/27/max-schreck-count-orlok-from-nosferatu-inspired-actors-such-as-bela-lugosi-klaus-kinski/