The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion. The absurdity that I find myself on the side of the rebellion is completely by mistake.. You see I like free time and thoughts.. and without electricity and libraries which are going away just like in 1984 story and the great reset.. I will miss them.

I see many people die because they judge that life is not worth living. I see others paradoxically getting killed for the ideas or illusions that give them a reason for living. That I am stealing quotes and thoughts of people I have never heard of before today shows how change can be reflected in a twinkling of an eye.

Yes, I am affected by the Mandela effect. This is a film, yes again a multiply choice film. More specifically, you lived, you died, and are being reanimated once before I continue backwards into time. You see, I am a closed time curved loop traveler. And this to me is a dead past of some 4.5 billion years, according to my journals and notes that I have made.

The reality can a time traveler change the past is not an answer I can provide. Why? Souls and films. I think Drakes math equation on the total number of habitual earths like the planet in the universe gives this example. Imagine 10  films with 10 endings all played out in certain parts of the stories by the exact same person.  

Then imagine being free given to the character who scripted to kill someone or read a book or do this evil or that good.

Then imagine that person not doing evil or doing well or if you are me saying to heck with this, I can read a book and get just as much pleasure from my mind as this drug or that wine. Now imagine not just 10 films imagine 10 to the power of 192 or 200.  Then imagine mirror reality for every good soul there is a bad soul and a soul in between.  Absurdity in yet that is a philosophical issue here  -what is called a reason for living is also an excellent reason for dying - seems like a question to ask. If something is worth living for is it worth dying for?

An answer to that is no. Nothing is really worth dying for. For once dead there is no rationale for living for that ideal or idea or person, place or thing.  

But love, country, home, or family?  Love is fickle. Country I have found out is nothing more than group of people willing to kill another group of people over greed or sex.

Home? Well, a place to live. For home is not real. For if you do not realize it maybe this will clear it.  We live as clay avatars. Meaning? All of us are light beings. Or more specific light is absorbed by plants and plants eaten by animals. Thus all we are are clay avatars for some absurd game. So home is not worth dying for because it can be rebuilt better bigger or elsewhere.

Family? This sort of goes in Drakes equation and Mandela effect and religion.  Drakes equation states the multiverse has one of everything and religion states God only deals with living people. While the Mandela effect seems to indicate closed time curved loop reality time travlers.  Meaning this goes into the bible where God says one will be against you and two for you part of the bible. Meaning none of the souls you are dealing with were the ones you started this trip out with and their perception of reality is distorted to where they either a can not change their thoughts or b are totally evil or c been warped.

So if family, nation, home, and all this is just absurdity being played out one more time because this is a reanimated past. The question is why?

I speculate Psalms 91 for some that believe in God. He will show them and I hope me his salvation. For others which is a wild guess of speculative part they have to replay this game with their memory wiped out.

Why do I speculate this? Because of the montauk project which youtube interview keeps on changing.  Why do I watch it? At first because not one of my pastors would answer why the heck am I seeing the world change names change political parties change and yes my influence change.

What changes on the presentation? What he talks about. In 2016 plus or minus billions of years into a future that no longer exists. Al talked about Montauk project stealing people souls. He gave a number of 2500, then a few days later 25,000 then 250,000 and I got lost doing some of writings that are no longer available and then I watched again and he said 25 million. Then it changed to he somehow took a train from California to New York in 34 minutes. The train he said was underground.  Then he said he worked in California on a super sonic device which company got purchased by Lockheed Martin. Then he said he traveled from earth to another exact replica of earth on the other side of the galaxy and now the latest he says as of yesterday March 1, 2022 plus 4.5 billion years for the next galaxy to hit this galaxy that earth had colonized Mars.

Do I believe him? To exactly honest I know several of the people he mentioned works from reading their works. And think that not everyone does the same thing in what ever this simulated reality is. Meaning sure I suspect he did all those things but not on the earth he was on.

Why is that?  John Von Neumman when I started this weird trip died in 1953.  And at that time I had not listened to Duncan videos. I did not find them until later. When I wrote him and replied he would pray for me.  Then I started to listen to his youtube also. Then John Von Neumann died in 1954, 1955, 1956, 1957. In May 1957 when he died he did a presentation on chaos and math. The presentation is locked up in Princeton and none of my emails corespondents has gotten me anywhere with getting the papers which were online at that reality. 

Anyway his math disproved chaos and that his final statement in his paper was that everything will happen according to some plan.

Let me be honest. I had no idea what he was talking about.  Anyway in 2015 I had picked up a few interesting people that believe in the book of Enoch. Personally I had never read it nor have I completely read the book. But evidently each earth has a book of life where your story is written down to exactly what you should encounter, and what the outcome will be.

This is something I did not know for well ever.  I thought this was nuts. But evidently each story of each soul is written down to the exact experience you should have and the only difference reality is how you react to that even or question or option.

What am I saying? Say you were to get even for someones thief or murder or what not. But you did not. Here in the bible the evil one can walk away from evil and be considered good. While in my reality I do not reading that or if it was in my bible there seeing it.

Thus I speculate that Daniel a book in the bible references another time for humanity do this whole absurd story again for those souls that the realities in 2016 stole from some reality.

What else have I seen? Beside South America move 2400 miles? Japan move from side of China to side of Korea? Australia island to the west of it being New Zealand to the New Zealand being one island or two island east of Australia?

Well, I knew Abe Lincoln was a senator in my reality. And we voted the second Tuesday of November or the 8th through the 14ths.

Does this make me who I say I am? I doubt it. It does make the shrinks want to drug me up but after a few visits they stop wanting to talk with me and I ? Well, I am allowed to write because no one reads me.

So this gets me back to freedom in an unfree reality of here just a few months prior to 1984 and they burn the libraries.

What is life about? If not family, home, or country? Breathing, eating or sex? I am not sure. Breathing I think is needed. Eating is needed. For society I suppose sex is needed.

What else? To do good and stop evil? All my ranting about doing good has for not. I doubt two people have gotten to this point in my writing.  Stop evil? I have to stop myself. Beyond myself control I doubt I could stop anything else.

So to do good. Eat, breathe, and maybe sex.  Versus what is there to live for?  The reality is if I am here I am dead elsewhere is absurd to most when I was from a future. How can you die in a future. Time distance and speed. For if you rewind a day here and night there and pass a soul here or there. Who is to tell the difference? And if this is all a joke. What an absurd life I have lived. And if I am Don Quixote tilting at imaginary evils which I see on the news. Does it make it real?

That part I am no longer sure about. For God created the eye to see and ear to hear. I know what I spoke as English is not what I see spoken on television anymore. Meaning I am partially deaf and have to watch lips and a lot of the time on television the lips keep moving while what I have heard is done or the lips pronunciation and what I hear do not make sense - that is my dilemna in my world but a dilemma here.