Spiritual Crisis

Recently I've been less involved on Minds, and to be honest it's sort of depressing that it's happened. I love this platform, it's cool, but for whatever reason I've lost my motivation. I don't really experience life like I was experiencing it, and I don't know why it's this way.

A few months ago I found the Tao Te Ching and it changed me, I would read it every day, and I finally found something to believe in. I still believe in it, but that attachment to Tao has taken a bit of a nose dive, and I cannot for the life of me why that is the case. I also began reading Confucius, which is also deeply aligned in my world view completely independent of me reading the book. Then one day I stopped reading both books. I believe in both of the ideas within the books. The Tao Te Ching for spirituality, and the Analects of Confucius for my views on societal structure and governance. With some overlap between the two.

I now find myself in more depressing place. I am who I was without the knowledge of the Tao and the wisdom of Confucius, but I do know the information. I just don't look to it for guidance.

Currently I'm at a crossroads in my life. I need the guidance of the books. I know nobody will read this, but it's more or less for my own benefit.