Some advice. Just for you to consider. Some things that help me. Follow the right. Reject cruelty. Reject immorality as well. Follow purity. Reject perversion, even the least perversion. It will only dull your mind and crush your spirit. Purity will give you life and happiness. You'll be creative. You'll see beauty. You'll be your own unique self. If you follow immorality and stuff like that, then you'll dull your personality. Also, pay attention to your religion (you said before that you were Christian). Follow the true faith. Don't neglect it. Read Scripture at least once a day. That is what I did of my own free will at your age. My life would have collapsed without it. Put roots in your Christian faith. Immerse yourself in it. Then you will find life and peace. Any other way will fail you. Turn to God at all times. Christ was once your age. Remember also your ethnic history. Put roots in it. Stir up memory of it daily. But above all, seek Truth, Purity, Morality, Wisdom, Understanding, Kindness (true kindness, not the false tolerances of wrong), and above all God. Pray whenever you remember God, even a small prayer. This isn't a burden. It is a blessing, life and peace.