I need to vent, I apologize ahead of time if this type of post bothers you. I try not to make it a habit, and I'll likely pull it down within a few days. Fortunately or unfortunately, depending on perspective, this is one of my only outlets to do so. I have nowhere else. I'm 43 and have hated my life for 25 of the last 30 years, and I can't keep living like this. I've been mostly cut off from society as an outsider the entire time, and never really integrated or fit in to "the system." The last 2 years have been especially hard. There has got to be some place for me somewhere, where I'm valued and can give value. That is all for now, thanks for listening if you read it.