There's days I want to give up. The persecution is for real. There's a lot of days that are difficult. And then I remember job all the hardships he went through. In the end though the blessings far outweighed the suffering. Though I have lived a life like job. I'm waiting on the blessings to pour out till they are two numerous for me to remember all the hardship and affliction. What a great day a ladder blessings will be. Then I will remember my hardships no more.