Welcome to an episode of Lost Paradise, finding love and verse Starring @FrostedRose and @SatoriD *live mic buzzing* Satori has unknowingly walked into a wall where he bangs his head against reality: "Rose and the Infinite Sadness Satorid left in madness because of pride and insecurities on both sides of perception" Rose sighs: Perception We craft our own reality What have you done to confirm your own bias? How do you conform? I have a right to feel proud of myself I am secure in Me, Myself, and I Why haven't you reached the same conclusion about yourself? Are you proud of who you are? Do you accept who you are and where you are, in comparison to where you want or expect to be? I was Rose and the infinite sadness Turned to gladness Flip flop on to madness Thought I had this Now the ropes are yours to turn Build a little endurance Real life hand eye coordination Satori, spiraling: "I am here saying this is the hill I am gonna die on that I may have my bias, I may not be fucking you like you want/need, because I don't got that chocolate dick you have reduced my value down to a cock, a lil cock at that, ain't much, I know, what do you think that was about, sending a picture of a zucchini from my garden?" Rose aggressively: Put down the porn and pick up a magazine It's about time you learn some anatomy You didn't know how to play with me in real life Physically You think size is the main factor here It's consent *slams book down on counter to accent* Satori, defeated: "you made a lil joke about how small and cute it was #winkyface, and that's when I first felt like I had to hold some cards, because she is not that nice at times" Rose, curious: It sounds like you felt insecure by my word choice, did you consider that my response might have been genuine? No one ever hears about the girls who like smaller guys. Do you think you're the smallest I've seen? Some things are just too mean Until this post, I've made a point not to reveal another man's size Even then, I'm not explicit, something has to be left up to the imagination Is it wrong to have preferences? Am I not allowed to know what I'm willing to endure and create boundaries for myself? I like to know what to expect, don't try to sweep away feelings of anticipated disappointment. Don't project your insecurities onto me! Tried to turn it around and say I'm too loose, but honey, crack open that text on female biology. If she's "tight", you're doing it wrong. It wasn't the length and girth measurements of your sexual organ that I fell in love with, across a divided nation, we found a way to make This happen. I'm right here, can you hear me? Waiting feels like an eternity Satori, overwhelmed by his own thoughts and feelings: "that is ok, because I got layers and depth for days and straight up homie, diamond sutra you are dead wrong, the closest we get to understanding another's unconscious is through sex, this is to slap the face of the dreamtime, double dutch and poetry." Rose, frustrated: Don't take my words out of context. 'I believe the closest we get to understanding another's unconscious is through sex; The primal urges, fantasies, desires, insecurities filtered into our lives through speech and behavior. Our thoughts become clearer when we learn to accept who we are, and how we are.' A true set of sexual partners learn to share their fantasies and desires while shedding insecurities. It is our responsibility to accept who we are and recognize how we are. Sometimes, that sexual energy is directed toward physical aspects of who we are or how we are. The experience helps us become more aware of ourselves through the eyes of a lover. A partner or companion is there to support changes, not decide what needs to change. Combine the two and a supportive partner should face their insecurities and support another in doing the same. Together partners must seek to empower not overpower themselves and their partner. Part of understanding the unconscious mind of others is considering every aspect of them, including how they manage primal urges. When I felt a primal urge, I shared with you the fantasy. Did you understand my excitement, or were you overwhelmed by insecurity? You're not as supportive emotionally as I expected of you, there's a lack of consistent emotional attunement with others. Your empathy flickers on and off with each shift in your emotional state. I expected a greater level of emotional regulation. I demanded boundaries you've yet to respect. Your spiral took you to a deep place, and pulled you away. You push me away Are we ever going to talk about your binge? Satori, continuing: "The first gods were the poets, that the wyrd is both the shaper and the one that is shaped, density and free will, they are not at odds they are the pistons that push and pull reality through the journey of space/time you want another diamond sutra? that i know when we double dutch, when we kiss, when we lay naked with each other, there is no one and nothing that can give us that same feeling, or why else hang on? i know you love my kiss, because even now i still want to fully deeply, truly hold and kiss you like only I know how, and you know why because only i know how? (probably controlled by bias) because i have been ..." Rose, exasperated: I guess not... what have you been? *silence*