Warning: coming out & sex/sexuality talk.

So I’ll keep it short and sweet. I’ve been at a pretty weird struggle with my sexuality for a long time and been doing a lot of research. Identity is very personal and something about others and myself I hold very highly. I think today I’ll be coming out as asexual.

I’ve had a wild ride with my sexuality, tugging myself between bisexual and asexual, never really understanding if I could identify as both because while I have physical feelings at times and (rarely) wants for sex, I feel no sexual attraction towards partners and if there is some then it’s minimal. When I look at a male or female body I appreciate it as art, no other feelings attached. I’m still physically attracted, just no horny element. I never understood people having those drives constantly and it has ruined a lot of relationships for me simply because both parties (including myself) didn’t understand why.

Regardless, I’m coming out as both bisexual and asexual. I know those close to me won’t think anything differently of me, but it’s a way of me expressing myself and I think I’ve finally hit my standpoint and correct label of my sexuality and it feels damn liberating. I feel like I finally understand and know how I’ve been feeling all this time.

Included, if anyone has any resources on asexuality or being both bi and ace at the same time, send them my way. I’m still doing research and it’s going to be quite a journey of self exploration for me.