What Death Feels Like (Mary Watson RIP 1974 - 2015)

If this blog entry touches you, would you remind, upvote, and/or comment with your Death experience, and the love of your spouse, who you miss, and any songs that help you through that time or even now? Others, please be sensitive to comments, if you disagree, do it apart from this blog. If you do not share faith in God, it may be difficult to understand the oneness of your life with your love, and how incomplete you are without them. -mrw

I am sure I will update this later, but for now,  the two songs that helped me through my death experience, losing my wife in 2015, were:

AfterImage, by Rush, from their album Grace Under Pressure

Talk, by ColdPlay, from their album X&Y

We all deal with grief in our own way.  Some losses are minor, while others are life shattering.  The loss of Mary was such a loss.  Imagine your life pulverized into the finest sands of glass, still sharp enough to cut you as you try to put your life back together.

Divorce was hard, with my first wife. But The Death of True Love, of 'Til Death do you part, is a whole other loss, and for a man, for me, the loss of my wife, is so great a loss.  I learn every day, just how great, even as I move on with my life, remarried and happy with this True Love again.  But there is always a space, an emptiness. Something I can't heal.  A pain I still want, because it connects me to her, because she did not deserve to die, and I would give my life, if I thought it would give her even one more day.

Part of me died with her, 3/7/2015. I hope the rest of me is good enough to live out the rest of my life, with Tam, and that I am fair to her, and love her with all the love she deserves, more than sometimes I have the energy to give.

Do you have someone like that in your life? If you are married and do not feel that, you might not be with the right person, but if you are, they deserve that closeness, the pain in death of missing them terribly, so that in life you do not take them for granted, and you give them the best of you, every day.

-Mark R. Watson, @markrwatson

Ps. Another very important tune that helps me a lot through all my griefs, is

Frail (original instrumental), by Jars of Clay, from the album The White Elephant Sessions

Mary was always about reassurance, never quite satisfied until the 3rd, 4th or 5th “it’s going to be all right”.  There hasn’t been invented, the door knob that she couldn’t twist out of repair, just to make sure over and over, that the door was indeed locked before she left.  But her faith in the blessed assurance of Jesus Christ was never in doubt, and something all of us as believers have.

Jars of Clay, “All My Tears”, from their CD Good Monsters

Mark is an avid Minds user, channel developer and Content Creator helping to build tools to help others succeed in social media and hoping those efforts help him to succeed himself. With over 20 Minds channels to date, he is forming a production engine @Studio8424 and a strategic approach known as @TheGreatGameOfMinds. By far his most active channel is @boostershot which has crowdboosted several subscribers dramatically increasing their views beyond normal boosts. His wife @tamgraver, his black lab @harveythedog and her small wiener dog @leximay do life through the @adventuresofmarkandtam. His full or most complete channel list is found @markrwatson. When you roast or drink coffee from an independent roaster, add @dailyroast, drink Wine, @dailywine, smoke cigars or pipe smoke @dailycigar, and we we will remind your post there.