Why I attended the 21 Convention

I arrived home last evening from 21Con… In my opinion, THE conference of the 21st century. On my drive home, I contemplated one of my primary rituals with my submissive and wife of 24 years. I was contemplating whether my subtle message to her 2 hours prior, "Im on the ground." had its intended effect. There was tangible apprehension as I continued on my journey home. What will I arrive home too when I walk through those doors?

5 years prior, I knew what I was going to walk into;

stress, conflict, arguing, fear, anger, sadness, depression, retreat…always the unknown.

Sometimes the booze would kick in before the fighting took over. It was always a throw of the dice how the evening would play out.

I pulled into the driveway, organized and collected my things, walked to the door, opened it and walked in.

There before me, was my beautiful girl. She has once again met my expectations, desires and needs.

Since my prior message, she has been busily preparing herself for my arrival. Cleaning herself, putting on her leather wrist and ankle cuffs, her collar, and preparing the things I require of her prior to my typical arrival home from a day at the office.

As I placed my things down and approached her, boots making their distinctly masculine sound on the wooden floor, I could feel the tension brewing. She was in her submissive bow, head down, arms outstretched in front of her, and my crop laying at the tips of her fingers in offering.

I conducted my brief inspection ritual, and was pleased to see all her beautiful efforts of preparation for my arrival. I leaned over, placed my hand on the back of her neck, applied a subtle but firm level of pressure, and asked her:

“Have you been a good girl?” I felt her shift under my hand.

“Yes Sir!” she replied through obvious tears.

A smile crept across my lips. I know these tears. I have seen them plenty of times these last few years.

I took my seat in my chair in front of her. As I sat, picked up my drink she had earlier prepared, and sipped it for the first time, I could hear her soft whimper’s. I could see her subtle motions as she quietly gasped for breaths between her sobs.

“Kneel for me.”

She immediately leapt to raise herself up onto her knees and present herself and my crop to me. I could see her tears now for the first time, streaming down her face from her beautiful green speckled eyes.

She was wearing a teary smile only disrupted by her sniffles. I looked into her eyes, and could see she was fighting back a full-blown cry. She was trying so hard to defer her eyes in submission per my rules, but she found herself unable to comply. As she looked at me through her beautiful tear soaked eyes, I could not help but to feel her bound up emotions.

I took the crop from her hands and said, “Come here baby!” with a warm smile. That was all it took and like a flash she was in my arms crying.

“I am so glad your home Siiir!!”….” I’ve missed you sooo much!!”.

I have to admit, that as I heard these words I also felt tears forming of my own. It was good to be home, and back into her loving arms. I love seeing and hearing these tears of joy she lovingly sheds. It moves me in monumental ways. It is a testament to our deep loving connection, intimacy and passion.

I really did not expect this walking in the door last evening. I am very grateful to have a partner in life that is willing to open her soul to me, and allow me to feel her deepest feelings and emotions without restraint.

Her bondage has allowed her to fully open to me, to show me her most vulnerable, private and intimate “pearl” that no other person in this world has ever seen.

Her bondage has set her free.

Last night, at the completion of this ritual, I took her right there on the living room pool table. I wanted her to feel the passion and energy I brought home from 21 Con. I wanted to feed her soul with a taste of what is to come.

It is my growth as a MAN that is responsible for this. The security and safety she feels in my presence gives her the confidence to open her deepest inner desires to me.

It serves as a reminder why I am here, where I want to go, and why my trip to 21 Con was so important.

The world NEEDS Masculine men and feminine women to survive, to flourish.

This is a message to ALL men and women that BDSM, and the Dominant/submissive lifestyle in particular is not a hurtful, damaging or abusive lifestyle. To the contrary, it has provided me with the tools to explore the deepest and most intimate depths of a woman’s soul. To actualize a circle of meeting each other’s needs in the most beautiful way, and to help unlock the best in my woman that she can be.

It is also a message that men need constantly pursue the Masculine lifestyle, as it is through this lens that the torch of femininity shines brightest. 21Con was a wake-up call to me that this path is long and arduous, but one that MUST be undertaken and constantly striven for.